Sunday, June 27, 2010

This is me

So, I have something to say...
If I yell at you, or get short with you, don't assume I hate you or don't care about whatever we're talking about. When I care enough to yell at you or get short with you, rest assured you're loved. I find it completely obtuse and crazed for some people to go around in their everyday lives with drama in them. If you can avoid it, why put yourself through it? I had this friend of mine today(for those of you that have watched Buffy, the girl acts very much like Snyder... in the BAND CANDY episode), anyway, this friend of mine attacks me, not physically, because she knows better than that, but verbally attacked my character, and I'm not gonna lie. It pissed me off GREATLY. I love the girl to death; she's absolutely one of my BEST friends, but sometimes she doesn't have the sense God gave a coconut... in fact, the coconut may have more sense. SHE asked for MY opinion about a certain situation she was in... some DAYS OF OUR LIVES saga thing. I gave her my opinion, and I was nice as I could be about it, seeing as she kept on finding reasons to ignore EVERYTHING I was saying and continue to ask me questions. So, yeah, I admit, I raised my voice. I didn't yell, but me raising my voice is extremely rare. Then I felt badly for raising my voice, so I got really quiet and started speaking in a slightly clipped tone. Then came the kicker.
She says, "You just absolutely DON'T care about me, do you?" The whole reason I DID give her my opinion was because I cared. Like I said, I love her, but sometimes she's an idiot. I try to tell her things to keep her from getting hurt, and she automatically jumps to, "You don't care." If I tell you something, if I care enough to ARGUE with you about something, I care about you. I only yell and fight with people I love. So please, guys, for furture reference, if I get miffed about a discussion, please know that I do care, and I would rather have you angry or upset with me than I would to see a friend hurting or regretting a decision they've made later on down the road. I've been there and I know how bad it sucks.
So, my advice to you crazy kids... leave the drama in high school. The less amount of it we have in the real world, the better off we'll be.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Long Time, No Talk

Hi guys! Long time no see! Miss me yet? Yes, I will admit that I've been pretty slammed, and placed my blog on the back burner for the last couple of months. But, here now! I just wanted to babble at you for a bit.
I got to thinking today. Yeah yeah... dangerous, I know. Anyway! I was thinking how much things you say have an effect on the people around you, or is it just me that has a foot that likes to live in my mouth and come back to kick me in my own butt? I have a feeling you guys know what I'm talking about. So... the reason for my thought proccess today...
For those of you new, that don't know me, or just simply don't care to go back and read my earlier entries, I keep children. Long story. I hurt myself a couple of years ago, wasn't able to drive due to nerve damage in the right leg, so I kept them to be able to DO something! One of the kids I keep is my younger cousin, Christopher. For those of you that have read before, you have a pretty good idea of his character. He's pretty much a four year old version of me. Just like I was at that age actually, except for the fact that he's autistic. I stuttered and he's autistic(very high functioning. He'll talk to you; not a mimic). That's basically the difference. Anyhow, one of my biggest pet peeves is having to repeat myself. He was in the playroom today, and I called to him from the living room and said, "You need to come on; I'm ready to go over flash cards with you." Usually, he comes right in the room to go over his flashcards. It's a daily routine. Just a little something that's helped him become able to communicate with people. Well, he didn't come when I called, so thinking he may have just not heard me, I walked into the playroom and repeated myself. He was playing with a toy dump truck. He hears me repeat myself and turns around. Then, in a voice, that I KNOW he had to get from me, says, "I heared you the first time. I'm not stuspid." I kinda stood there for a second, pretty much stunned. I later tell my roommate and she says, "He's heard you say it." And thinking on it, yeah, he has. Not only do I hate repeating myself, I hate hearing people repeat themselves. I constantly tell my roomie, when she says something(and I don't acknowledge it) and repeats it, the only difference is that I say "heard" and pronouce "stupid" correctly. So yeah, I really need to watch my tongue around the kiddies. Sure it wasn't like it was a curse word or something, but when you're trying to teach a four year old to have manners... not something you want him saying.
So, anyhow, I've learned a lesson today. Watch whhat you say, or it'll bite ya in the tucus! Then, you can't exactly correct them, not that I didn't try. I just got, "Well, YOU said it." tossed back at me. Could thing I had the old faithful. "I'm bigger than you are," to fall back on! So yeah, definitely learning that people, even little four year olds, pay attention to everything you do and say, even when you think they aren't listening!
Thanks for letting me babble at you guys! More bloggage to come, and i'll try not to neglect you so long next time! Catch ya then! :o)